I am lost. I admit it. The last few months, really the last few years, have been a whirlwind that has left me adrift and in need of finding myself and my happiness. I know that I have been blessed in many ways but I have lost so much in the last few years that happiness has become hard to find. I know I need to find my way back to a place where I am happy.
I suspect some of you are wondering why my faith isn’t providing me the anchor I need. I don’t really have an answer to that right now. I still have the same core beliefs that I have always held but I am still lost.
When I started focusing on my blogging in 2012, I had hoped it would help. It hasn’t. The digital scrapbooking that I used to love just brings me frustration. More recently, I tried shopping as a way to find happiness. The problem there is that the feeling of happiness was temporary (and it was a rather expensive proposition.)
I know a couple of mistakes I made. One of the mistakes is the result of a natural part of my personality. I am a person that doesn’t like to upset people. I am always worried about what other people think. I let this aspect of my personality totally determine the type of posts I created. I wasn’t creating the posts I wanted to create. I was creating posts that wouldn’t upset anyone. The result has been a blog that I don’t find very interesting.
I suspect you are all wondering where this post is going. I guess I am inviting you all to join me in my journey to rediscover my happiness. You are going to see more blog posts from me. More blog posts that I actually want to write. I’ll be writing about politics, faith, scrapbooking and anything else that strikes my fancy. This is going to become the blog I want it to be. In the process of changing my blog, I hope to find my way back to the happiness I used to enjoy.